physical therapy: i know that i have to let you go, even though i really loved how you loved me. you were one of the first guys who really loved me and now that i’ve really lost you, i’ve realized how much you really mean to me. but i know that letting you go is the best thing to do because i never want to put someone else what i went though and telling you what i feel now would do that. so i guess i am going to have to hold it in for the rest of my life….but know that i do love you and i always will. i’m just sad that our friendship seems to be going away now that you are with someone else. i just want you to be happy.
maybe someday i will tell you that all you had to to was say it to me. tell me what you were feeling and how you felt about me, because then we could have been something. i needed you to take a chance on me and let out your feelings to know that it was true. and i have never told this to ANYBODY because if i did, knew that they would tell you and that would have forced you to say something. I wanted you to want to say it to me. i needed that. and think that day will come around eventually, when you can actually tell me. from now until that time i need to decide if i should tell you the truth or just smile and laugh it off. i don’t know which will be better because i know that telling you the truth could really hurt you but not telling the truth will kill me.
